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Madi Cannon
Artist | Hobbyist | Digital Art
United States
18, bisexual, and really into drawing people and writing stories. I'm not insanely good at art quite yet, but I work really hard at trying to learn techniques. I crave being able to really capture what my characters look like, and i'm not going to stop trying to get better until I can draw every single one of them perfectly...which will never happen because nothing is perfect, but it's good to have goals.

feel free to drop a fave, comment, watch, ANYTHING!! i make sure to get back to anyone that does :3
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I have a serious anxiety problem. Not socially...technically. not in the way you usually hear about, being afraid to hang out with friends or go out in a big crowd and stuff. I mean, those things still bother me...but not that badly. I'm starting to realize that my phobia of vomit is really having a negative affect on my life. It has caused me to experience the most extreme sense of panic in certain situations that i have ever felt. Even hearing about something throwing up bothers me. Like...if i find out that somebody puked in an aisle, even hours before i showed up to work, i feel so scared. Or if someone looks sick or complains they don't feel good. If i'm somewhere that vomiting usually happens, i cannot handle being there without living in fear. I felt as on edge as if someone was following me when i went to a theme park with my family, terrified that someone could step off a ride and vomit right in front of me. It terrifies me...and i think not only is it gross, but its made me notice just how much i rely on control. I cannot control what could happen, when i hang out with new people...i cannot predict if i will cross a line or say something stupid or just do something in general that makes me or them uncomfortable. Just like i cannot predict someone vomiting, because most times it's random. I have scenes from movies locked in my mind of people vomiting. Because it happened too quickly for me to look away. These scenes haunt me. I have nightmares about people vomiting in that keep me on edge for days after, that make it hard for me to sleep. and that seems to be a common thing with me...i fear things that are out of my control more than anything else. and its made it hard for me to do a lot of things comfortably. So i think...either i have to start analyzing this sort of "loss of control" fear, or address that this phobia might be a serious issue that i need help for. Because one way or another, i need to stop dismissing my mental health. 

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axslayer33 Featured By Owner Jan 7, 2016  Hobbyist General Artist
Hey, long time no see. How ya doing?
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secretman9 Featured By Owner Dec 18, 2015  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Hey, rather than commenting on just one picture, I figured I'd say right here that you have gotten a lot better since the last time I saw your work! Keep it up, okay?
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LilyF Featured By Owner Oct 15, 2015  Hobbyist Digital Artist
thanks for the fav:star:
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cookitsuni Featured By Owner Oct 13, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
Thank you for the fav :) I give you a llama badge
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William6666 Featured By Owner Oct 11, 2015
Hi there ^^
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DamaiMikaz Featured By Owner Aug 15, 2015  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Thanks a lot for adding my work to your collection
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CONJUREDLEGACY Featured By Owner Edited Jul 23, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
omg I remember when I was so obsessed with you xD
I was :skyrimluver17
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bleachofPsykirea Featured By Owner Jun 15, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
I'm in love with this video, and I hope you will too. Watch it and tell me what you think.

m.youtube.com/watch?list=PLk0P…
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A-HeartOfGold Featured By Owner May 5, 2015
wowow thanks for the fave
and nice art yee
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