for some reason the tiniest little things going wrong are just tearing me down lately.
i was in a slump for a while. i hate saying depression but i suppose that's the only way to truely describe it in a relatable fashion. I lost interest in a lot of things...sure i was writing more than usual, but i wasn't drawing or gaming or anything really.
I finally got out of that, for a few days, but now i've sunk even further. today i was supposed to get a tattoo of something i have wanted for a few years. i finally am old enough, have the money, and drew out the design. I booked the appointment and everything, but due to the artist's daughter being sick, we had to reschedule. he said sunday would work, but my lousy boss who writes the schedule (and is dumb as a brick) wont really negotiate with me.
I understand that i didn't mark the date on the calender (i went in to do that today, having only found out about the reschedule an hour before) but she wont even try. The schedule is finalized on thrusday, yet "she already made it." She gets so fucking stressed out by tiny things, yet shes in a position of authority. it makes no sense to me. she can barely form a coherent sentence without stuttering and driving herself crazy. Its a pain in the ass. She fucks up my schedule all the time, giving me 4 or 5 days of work knowing i'm barely passing my high school classes. i've told her every other week that i can only work 3 days, and she still does this to me.
now my tablet isn't working. I tried everything, but i think the usb cord is fucked. so I can't even color any drawings now. And of course writing is pointless considering it always sucks and the only people willing to read it are either way too harsh or know nothing about constructive criticism. it all feels like its going so wrong lately...