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Madi Cannon
Artist | Hobbyist | Digital Art
United States
18, bisexual, and really into drawing people and writing stories. I'm not insanely good at art quite yet, but I work really hard at trying to learn techniques. I crave being able to really capture what my characters look like, and i'm not going to stop trying to get better until I can draw every single one of them perfectly...which will never happen because nothing is perfect, but it's good to have goals.

feel free to drop a fave, comment, watch, ANYTHING!! i make sure to get back to anyone that does :3
I have a serious anxiety problem. Not socially...technically. not in the way you usually hear about, being afraid to hang out with friends or go out in a big crowd and stuff. I mean, those things still bother me...but not that badly. I'm starting to realize that my phobia of vomit is really having a negative affect on my life. It has caused me to experience the most extreme sense of panic in certain situations that i have ever felt. Even hearing about something throwing up bothers me. Like...if i find out that somebody puked in an aisle, even hours before i showed up to work, i feel so scared. Or if someone looks sick or complains they don't feel good. If i'm somewhere that vomiting usually happens, i cannot handle being there without living in fear. I felt as on edge as if someone was following me when i went to a theme park with my family, terrified that someone could step off a ride and vomit right in front of me. It terrifies me...and i think not only is it gross, but its made me notice just how much i rely on control. I cannot control what could happen, when i hang out with new people...i cannot predict if i will cross a line or say something stupid or just do something in general that makes me or them uncomfortable. Just like i cannot predict someone vomiting, because most times it's random. I have scenes from movies locked in my mind of people vomiting. Because it happened too quickly for me to look away. These scenes haunt me. I have nightmares about people vomiting in that keep me on edge for days after, that make it hard for me to sleep. and that seems to be a common thing with me...i fear things that are out of my control more than anything else. and its made it hard for me to do a lot of things comfortably. So i think...either i have to start analyzing this sort of "loss of control" fear, or address that this phobia might be a serious issue that i need help for. Because one way or another, i need to stop dismissing my mental health. 

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axslayer33 Featured By Owner Jan 7, 2016  Hobbyist General Artist
Hey, long time no see. How ya doing?
secretman9 Featured By Owner Dec 18, 2015  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Hey, rather than commenting on just one picture, I figured I'd say right here that you have gotten a lot better since the last time I saw your work! Keep it up, okay?
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LilyF Featured By Owner Oct 15, 2015  Hobbyist Digital Artist
thanks for the fav:star:
cookitsuni Featured By Owner Oct 13, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
Thank you for the fav :) I give you a llama badge
William6666 Featured By Owner Oct 11, 2015
Hi there ^^
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DamaiMikaz Featured By Owner Aug 15, 2015  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Thanks a lot for adding my work to your collection
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CONJUREDLEGACY Featured By Owner Edited Jul 23, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
omg I remember when I was so obsessed with you xD
I was :skyrimluver17
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bleachofPsykirea Featured By Owner Jun 15, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
I'm in love with this video, and I hope you will too. Watch it and tell me what you think.…
A-HeartOfGold Featured By Owner May 5, 2015
wowow thanks for the fave
and nice art yee
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