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Journal Entry: Thu Nov 6, 2014, 8:09 PM


its sad...because its both a lack in art skills and my own personal preferences that are making my characters look like shit...Kai specifically. 

I wish I could apologize to him. That's really all I want these days, to be able to look him in the eye and say "i'm sorry that I can't make you skinny"

even when I try my best, there is just a point where I stop myself...

its like jealousy, really. I look at certain anime and pictures and I just wish I could replicate it. Wish I could thin out his legs and make his body more angled and slender and all fit along one line rather than jut out at the hips. I could do it...

I can draw it, if I really try. but the second I think of it as Kai, the second I add his hair and his chin and those eyes, I can't bring myself to keep it. I find myself drifting back to the way he was. Wanting to change his story to the way it used to be and give him that tiny body. Take away the hips I gave him and only him because it made him have the most unique figure. But each time I see anime guys...god i just hate myself. 

I try to convince myself that the typical skinny cute anime dude is overused and Kai should not be made to look like one of them, but jesus I'm so sick of him always turning out fat. Always turning out as the one that gets laughed at and criticized by EVERYONE I know just because he is odd. I'm sick of it...and i don't even know how to explain it.

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Doodlebugmlp Featured By Owner Nov 8, 2014  Student Traditional Artist
thanks for the fav on doodlebugmlp.deviantart.com/ar…
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Awko-Talko Featured By Owner Nov 4, 2014  Hobbyist Artist
Your request (Request) Kai (: hope you like it
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Kitsun3mi Featured By Owner Oct 29, 2014
Thanks for the fav! And feel free to check out the song the art was used for! 
www.youtube.com/watch?v=Kn9LEC…
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HaileyRidenow Featured By Owner Oct 20, 2014  Professional Traditional Artist
Thank you for the favorite!
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Sailorlove10 Featured By Owner Oct 11, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Thanks for the fave on my Endersquid reference!!! :D
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1autokiller Featured By Owner Oct 9, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Thank u so much fot the fav^^
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Jsmigle Featured By Owner Oct 8, 2014  Student Traditional Artist
Thank you for the fave!
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FishOuO Featured By Owner Sep 20, 2014  Hobbyist Filmographer
thx for the fave
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saotomekun Featured By Owner Sep 12, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Thank you so much for the watch and the fav!! That means so much to me I can't even *w*
Your gallery looks adorable!! Definite watch back : p
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zoey-pie Featured By Owner Sep 1, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
thanks for the fave
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